Nightmare. Have you ever felt this way? It happened last night. I saw them blink in a big shadow evading my space. My entire body was trembling and shaking, my palms sweating. I was so terrified, I couldn’t breath. I tried to swallow my fear. Fortunately, my shrill cry saved me: mom’s long arms quickly wrapped around me. I rubbed my eyes to clear my vision. It wasn’t a nightmare: that shadow has always been there.
Every single day, walking in the street, in the school’s corridor, on the beach. Doing an oral presentation, singing on a stage, dancing at a party. I feel them on my back, steadily looking. Their gaze follows my every move sending chills down my spine.
I see hostility, jealousy, antipathy, enmity towards me behind those eyesights. Some are green, blue, brown, black. Despite their differences, they all pierce me to the bone.
With mascara or without
With sunglasses or just glasses
With grey eyebrows or black
They all hold that hypercritical look.
Even though, I keep resisting, their glances keep hunting me. Within their eyes, I discern their criticism on my hair, my beauty and my outfit.
Isn’t it crazy how our eyes can replace our tongues ? They are the windows to our souls.
But now I know,
I know that you can’t stop people from staring at you and judging you. I know that from the start the blame wasn’t on them, it was on me. I trusted my eyes more than my heart. They were blinded by those censorious thoughts.
Today, all I see in those eyes is the reflection of the person I am not nor will I ever be. The fact that they do not know me, only gives me a chance to introduce my true personality to those who know me by name.
Our appearance is an impression, our personality genuine. Aim to be the best version of yourself. Change your angle of sight and live your way fit.
I hope the message behind this words really inspired you. Let me know your thoughts, leave a comment. Thank you so much for reading.
Hasta pronto amigos !!!